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Monday Night Ramblings

There aren’t words to describe how ready I am for this semester to end and for me to focus exclusively on the farm.  Mentally, I’m completely exhausted, and emotionally, I’m worn down to a nub.  Most of how I feel right now is leftover from last semester.  The combination of dual enrollment and overload broke something inside of me and took away the last reserve of teaching energy I had stored away.  Then, on top of having been overworked in an inhumane manner, I now sense the weight of this current assault on education pressing down on me as each day I feel as if I have to justify my existence to a nameless, faceless enemy that seeks to dismantle the career for which I’ve sacrificed so much.  It’s a sickening sensation, and morale among my colleagues is disturbingly low.

The truly maddening part of our current political climate is that we’re on a collision course with self-destruction.  Our nation’s infrastructure has been woefully neglected for decades, and now, instead of fixing the two areas that truly threaten to bankrupt this nation, namely the unchecked inflation in healthcare and energy costs, our “leaders” have set their sights on dismantling that infrastructure even more.  We spend $750 billion out of the Federal budget on a healthcare system that is completely disconnected from market realities and true free trade principles, yet instead of finding a solution to that, we’re gonna punish the civil servants, most of whom are already overworked and underpaid and feel like second class citizens.  If that’s not madness, what is?

My best hope for the future is the farm.  If I can get it productive and on the road to self-sufficiency, then I’ll walk away from the system and never look back.  I can honestly say that I did my best to make something of a difference and give something back to my community.  I’d be lying if I said I didn’t feel as if I’ve failed because the values I’ve embraced and the skills I’ve taught now seem antiquated and worthless, especially in our current environment, and I’d be lying if I said I didn’t feel impotent and powerless against the tide of mindless hate that’s ripping our society apart.  But I gave all I had to give, and now, my tank is empty.  Now, I just want to grow some vegetables and enjoy the woman who loves me and spend as much time as possible with my family.  Someone else can worry about literacy and critical thinking and organization of thought.  As for me, I’m going to focus on fixing up the building, installing the first unit, and growing fresh food.

Thursday Afternoon Ramblings

Here are two examples of why our educational system is imploding: Two days ago, as I was going to lunch, I overheard three or four students discussing why they were ditching class that day.  From their conversation, I surmised that they were skipping a composition class, and while I don’t claim that I never skipped a class, it was their reason that disturbed me.  “We’re not doing anything, today,” one girl said.  “She’s just talking about writing drafts and stuff.”  That’s the mentality in a nutshell–listening and taking notes is “not doing anything” to this generation.  There’s simply no thirst for knowledge, no passion for learning new concepts.  Everything must be entertainment.  Those of you who have never taught, I dare you to stand in front of 30 of these slack-jawed, glassy-eyed, mentally regressed oafs, try to discuss with them something about which you are passionate, and NOT feel the urge to shake the crap out of them.

The second example is equally disturbing to me.  In my developmental writing course, I gave back papers yesterday, and one of the students, who has been the most vocal that he doesn’t need the course, earned a D because he had five or six comma splices in a 250 word paragraph.  His strong content is all that kept him from an F, but as soon as he saw his grade, he came rushing up to me.  “This is unacceptable,” he said.  “What can I do for extra credit?”  Then, later in class, he explained to me that he couldn’t understand how he could be considered such a weak writer in college when he was an honors English student all through high school.  First off, I don’t give extra credit.  I still stick to my guns that extra credit should only be doing it right the first time.  But the “honors” student is what really disturbs me because it gets straight to the heart of what’s wrong with education today.

For a couple of decades now, the movement in education has been about making students feel good about themselves.  Don’t criticize them too harshly because you might irreparably wound their tender egos.  As a result of this coddling, the students never develop a sense of accountability.  Then, when they are faced with the cold, harsh reality that they aren’t precious little snowflakes and that the world doesn’t give a damn about their excuses or their emotions or their self-imposed limitations, they crumble into little balls of wounded feelings.  And here’s where I’ll sound like my father and grandfather, but in my day, being an honors student really meant something.  If I had written ONE comma splice for Mrs. LeFever, she not only would’ve flunked me on that paper, she would’ve kicked me out of the honors class.  We actually had to be able to perform at an honors level to remain in those classes.  Today, it’s an empty title based on an empty attempt to educate without standards.

I wanted to tell him that he should go back to his high school and berate them for giving him a false sense of ability when they should have been preparing him for collegiate writing.  Instead, however, I told him to work harder on the next paper, but I doubt that he will learn the lesson.  For too many years, he’s heard how special he is, how unique, how capable.  Now that he’s actually being held to account for his actual ability, it’s my fault for being too harsh and for not recognizing his brilliance.  This, my friends, is why I want out.

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Sunday Night Ramblings

I had a blast this weekend.  As always, the Choo Choo felt like home, and seeing all my good friends was wonderful.  I don’t want to single out any one person for fear of leaving out someone, but you guys know who you are.  I also made some new friends, and for that, I’m grateful.  The picture above was taken on Saturday.  Believe it or not, we three guys had on the exact same shirt!

That’s all for tonight.  I’m exhausted and have my long day tomorrow.