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Tuesday Morning Ramblings – Thankful #16

I’m thankful for my friends.  I’m one of the most fortunate people in the world because I have great friends.  I’m not going to single out any one individual for fear of leaving someone out, but if you consider yourself my friend, please know that I am grateful for your presence in my life.  I’m not an easy person to be friends with, so thank you for tolerating my stubbornness, foolishness, and oddness.

I also apologize to my friends for sometimes being so distant.  I often deal with difficulties by retreating into my shell and and sorting things out on my own.  It’s my way of getting through bad stuff, and while I acknowledge that it makes me standoffish, it’s just the way I process things.  Please understand that if you are a friend of mine, I still care about you even if I don’t come around for a while.

My friends have always had my back, and for that, I’m most grateful.  I don’t need to reiterate what the last three years have been like, and I wouldn’t have survived without the love and support of my truest friends.  You kept me from sinking too deeply into utter despair, and I will never forget that.  Now that my life is moving in the right direction and I have found a wonderful woman who is a positive and nurturing influence, I hope to reconnect with those of you who I’ve lost some contact with.  Please, know that even if we haven’t spoken for some time, I still consider you a friend and am grateful for all that you’ve given me over the years.

Monday Afternoon Ramblings – Thankful #15

I’m thankful for The Brotherhood of Dwarves.  That book will always represent to me my rebirth as a writer.  Graduate school killed my creative drive and stifled my voice, so when I began writing the book, I hadn’t written much of anything in three years.  The reason why the first couple of chapters are the way they are is because I was unsure of myself, taking baby steps out of the gate to get my bearings and find my voice.  Other than superficial polishing, I’ll not change those chapters because of what they mean to me.

Overall, Brotherhood is a good book.  The story is tightly contained, the characters are real, the plot twists are solid, and the climax is powerful.  By the middle, I had knocked off all the rust and had found my voice, and some of the writing in the second half really crackles.  It’s not perfect and has some flaws, but in total, I’m proud of it as a story.

Brotherhood may never receive the attention it deserves, and the series may never be successful, but I will always be proud of the accomplishment of finishing the manuscript, polishing it, getting it to print, and promoting it.  I accomplished something special with it, overcame a lot of odds along the way, and created something my children can be proud of.

I’m grateful for that book, for the journey of bringing it to life, and I will always be thankful for the feelings of accomplishment and fulfilment the book has given me.

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Sunday Afternoon Ramblings – Thankful #14

I’m thankful to be a Steelers fan.  For those of us of my generation who cheer for the Black and Gold, there’s more to it than just the quality of football on the field.  Yes, we have more Super Bowl victories than anyone else.  Yes, we’ve appeared in Super Bowls in four consecutive decades.  Yes, we’ve sent a plethora of players to the Hall of Fame.  But there’s more to being a diehard Steelers fan than just winning.

The Chief, Art Rooney, was the epitome of what a successful person should be: humble, down-to-earth, kind, generous, and loyal.  He was, in the words of Terry Bradshaw, “A good king.”  When Dan Rooney took over the helm, he has continued his father’s legacy of embodying decency while maintaining success.  Dan Rooney is the man who pushed for racial equality in the league where 70% of the players are African-American but nearly all of the head coaches and literally all of the owners are white.  He then followed through on his scruples by hiring a young, unproven African-American in Mike Tomlin, who in turn rewarded the Rooneys by winning the team’s sixth Super Bowl.

The haters will chime in with jeers about Ben Roethlisberger’s off the field indiscretions and how that has tarnished the Steelers’ image.  My only response is that while Big Ben has behaved stupidly and immaturely in his life, he has not been charged with any crimes.  A more telling illustration of what the organization stands for comes from the mid-90’s.  Bam Morris was a rising star at running back and a perfect fit for Coach Cowher’s smash-mouth style.  During the off-season, he was caught with an absurd amount of marijuana in his trunk, obviously for resale, and the team immediately released him, declaring that there was no room on the team for that kind of character.  Around the same time, Michael Irvin was arrested in a hotel room with cocaine and hookers.  Cowboys owner Jerry Jones scrambled to do damage control with the media and made every effort to sweep the incident under the rug.

In 1988, my junior year in high school, the Steelers went 5-11, the team’s worst record in my lifetime.  Every day, I wore my Steelers hat proudly.  I was still grateful to be a Steeler even though the team was not winning right then, and in my experience, most Steelers fans feel the same way.  Many fans of other teams (locally the Titans come to mind) are fair-weather fans, proud to wear their gear when the team is good but quick to don another team’s jersey when the record slides.  The difference is because the Steelers embody more than just performance–it’s about a mindset of how to conduct yourself in good times and bad.  It’s about being proud of being blue-collar.  It’s about digging in deep when things get tough.  That’s what the Steelers mean to me, and I’m thankful to call myself a Steelers fan.