Friday Afternoon Ramblings

There aren’t words to express how much I love writing.  It’s fulfilling in a way that nothing else can compare to.  The only thing more fulfilling, even though it’s different, is the time I get to share with the boys.  I’ve heard others talk about their creative process in a similar light as I do.  Flannery O’Connor comes to mind.  She said that as she wrote, she smiled like the Cheshire Cat.  I’ve also heard others who felt tortured by it.  Haruki Murakami likened writing a novel to releasing a toxin into the body and only those who have the strength to suppress the toxin can complete a book.  On one level, I understand what he means.  The process from inception to completion is exhausting, but I wouldn’t compare my creative energy to anything so negative.

Instead, for me, it’s like swimming in a naturally warm spring, where the water is always 78 degrees, and each night as I sink into the spring, my body and mind relax.  I’m no longer here in this place; I’m somewhere else, barely a conscious being, and a primitive part of the universe is moving through me unchallenged.  Like most transcendental experiences, it’s hard to put into accurate words.

Chapter 11 is coming along nicely, now that I figured out the stumbling block.  The next couple of scenes will be pretty fun to write, and I hope to have this chapter completed over the weekend.  Then, I’ll just have three more chapters to finish, so the end of June looks really good for completion of the rough draft.  When it’s done, I’ll dive into the editing full throttle, but I will not cut corners.  This book will not be rushed to market, not for any reason.  I want this one to be good, much better than the first two, and the only way to achieve that end is to focus on the rewriting with painstaking attention to detail.

Check back for more updates over the weekend.

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Thursday Morning Ramblings

I’ve learned something about myself that is more than a little surprising.  I actually enjoy doing yard work.  For the last three weeks or so, I’ve been working around my parents’ place, clearing brush and debris helping dad with the things he just can’t do anymore.  Perhaps, it’s because it’s such a 180 from teaching and allows me to escape from the frustrations of apathetic teenagers, or maybe it’s because it offers me a measure of control in a life of chaos.  I don’t know the answer.

I’m using the yard work like an exercise routine to help improve my health.  I’m not sure of the actual amount, but I have lost a little weight already.  The more I can lose this summer, the sooner I can get back on the road with promoting, so that’s my motivation for staying with it.  But it’s more than just that.  I really have enjoyed it.  For the first time in a long, long time I’ve felt pride about an accomplishment.  For the first time in a long, long time I’ve felt good about myself.

There’s a long way to go to get the property where it’s fully functional again.  I really should have started this project two years ago after the divorce, but I didn’t, so now the job is a little bigger and a little harder than it would’ve been.  That’s okay, though, because if it continues to give me this sense of pride, I won’t mind that it will take more time to finish.

That’s all for now.

Monday Afternoon Ramblings

One of the best TV series of all time came to a close last night, and unlike shows like the Sopranos that ended with a gutless, wishy-washy, open-for-interpretation cop out or Sex and the City that went the sentimental route, or countless other series that ended on a whimper, the series finale for Lost was nearly perfect.

As a storyteller, I’ve been impressed season after season at the continuity of the show despite the immense scope of the plot lines.  A couple of years ago, I heard an interview with the man who was in charge of tracking all of the character interactions, who met when and how, likes and dislikes, the day in day out minutiae that many of us storytellers take for granted because we’re working on one project for a given amount of time and have a limited number of main characters.  For most projects, one person can keep up with everything with a minimal amount of effort.  However, Lost, with its multitude of primary characters and plethora of supporting characters spread out over a six year period, needed an archivist to keep the writers straight.  That fact alone is impressive.

Another great admiration for the show was the character development.  Each season, the characters grew, regressed, matured, changed allegiances, and suffered, and within the confines of the story, they were nearly always believable as true-to-life.  Again, as a storyteller, I’m impressed with how the writers were able to maintain that verisimilitude over an extended period.

Probably the thing I loved most about the series was that it was smart.  The creators didn’t dumb-down the show to appeal to a broader audience; they didn’t back off of planting cultural nuggets like important pieces of art or great works of literature into scenes to challenge the audience.  In fact, they seemed to relish the opportunity to make the show intellectually stimulating.  As a fan, I loved that.

Last night, the series finale made me cry more than once, and I’m not often moved to tears by a TV show.  The scene when Jin’s memory is triggered by seeing his daughter’s ultrasound was one of the most moving moments of television I’ve ever experienced.  In part, that’s because of my own memory of that first ultrasound, but also because it was so realistic to me.  Each of the “awakenings” was triggered by some connection to love, and even though he never got to meet his daughter in person, his paternal love was so strong that seeing her heartbeat on the ultrasound was enough to make him whole.  In terms of storytelling, that moment was sublime, and I reserve use of that word for only truly transcendental moments.  To me, that scene qualifies as sublime.

The other amazingly beautiful moment occurred between Benjamin Linus and John Locke at the end of the show when Ben apologizes for all he had done.  That moment of humility and penitence was sincere and moving.  The fact that Ben realized he wasn’t ready to move on and needed more time to sort through his personal issues is what kept the scene from wandering into the sentimental.  He was a deeply flawed character but was headed in the right direction.  Locke forgiving him was an encapsulation of what all spirituality is supposed to be: forgiveness and reconciliation.

I’m sad to see the series end, but I’m glad it’s closing on such a strong note.  Few TV series can claim that they ended before they grew stale and tired, but Lost can honestly make that statement.

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